Turns out I'm fat. I've always been some form of fat and although, I'd like to blame it on some thyroid issue or my genes, I think it is safe to say I've earned it. It's that one thing I've never liked about myself but also never been very good at changing. Sure I've done the yo-yo thing where I lose a little and then gain it back but I've NEVER been one of those cute little girls that you see shopping in Forever 21. It just isn't me. It never has been me and I'm convinced it never will be me, especially now... turns out three pregnancies will, shall we say, change things. These are changes I would NEVER trade though!
So what does being fat have to do with being pregnant you ask? Well I don't get to flaunt my cute little prego belly around. The problem with being fat and pregnant is that the round little belly is there... somewhere but I can't see it and neither can the world around me. It's hidden, very well! Instead of looking pregnant I just look fatter than usual. When I was pregnant with Case I don't think I got my first pregnancy question from a stranger until I was about 3 weeks from my due date. I was at Subway and I could have kissed that lady; however I restrained myself because although I could have blamed my outburst on pregnancy hormones I thought it might still be inappropriate.
One thing you can find lots of on the internet are cute prego bellies. One thing you can't find much on the internet are fat prego bellies. So I'm taking one for the "fat team" and putting it out there. Here is the first of my fat prego belly pics.
How Far Along: 17 Weeks
Size of baby: Baby Johnston (I've got to think of a nickname for this baby!) is the size of an onion!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Am I really going there? About 4 lbs but somehow this varies by time of day... tomorrow morning it could 6 lbs or I could have lost weight... who knows!
Maternity Clothes: I finally marched into Motherhood Maternity with my FAVORITE maternity jeans, which are worn out in the legs...my chunky friends will understand this, and said, "I want these!" She found the darker less flattering version that doesn't have cool pockets but I'm sure they'll be more comfortable once I get them broken in. I can still fit in my regular pants but man oh man maternity pants are a pregnancy perk!!! I don't like stuff tight on my belly anymore. I'm pretty sure I can hear the baby saying, "momma, unbotton those pants, I can't breathe!" It's ok little one... neither can momma!
Gender: We will have our ultrasound on the 18th. Less than a week away. We're planning to have this top secret info put into an envelope to open when the time is right. It's a fun way to do it and it drives my husband TOTALLY crazy!
Movement: I thought I felt baby move a few days ago but I'm pretty sure tonight there was movement. I guess I should remember what that feels like since it wasn't even a year ago that I was feeling it!
Sleep: I'm pretty tired but sleep doesn't always come so easy or maybe doesn't always last is a better description. I've have lots of sinus stuff to help too:-(
Cravings: Right now my craving is shredded lettuce with cottage cheese, green olives, a little ranch and a little French. I don't know if that is weird because it's something I'd eat even when I'm not pregnant. My other craving is regular Coke. I buy it without the caffeine and I like it but nothing compares to a McDonald's Coke with lots of ice!!! I do limit this so the Caffeine Police can relax!
Symptoms: Still struggling with nausea off and on. I am occasionally taking Zofran to combat it but not needing to rely on that nearly as much at this point.
Best Moment this week: Feeling baby kick! There is nothing cooler than feeling your baby moving inside of you. I know men always say that they're glad women have the babies but I can't honestly say that I am too! The pain is nothing compared to this incredible feeling! I LOVE being pregnant!!