A sad goodbye...

As I sit here this evening, I'm awaiting the burial of our beautiful boys, Joshua Wayne and Caleb Scott. Everything has happened so fast since our last post. I went to the doctor last Friday (9/5/08) after continuing to feel a tightening feeling. They measured my cervix again and everything looked the same. I asked Brandy (the ultrasound technician) to please check on the babies. She showed them to me and then said that she needed to show the pictures to the doctor. I knew something was wrong. Dr. Fenoughty came in immediately and said "We may have a problem." She said there was a lot of fluid between the boys and there were no longer heartbeats. She suspected placenta abruption. I was devastated. My boys were gone. Dr. Fenoughty and Brandy were both very caring and explained everything to me. They told me that I would have to deliver them because I was so far along. She wanted me to talk to Wayne and decide if we wanted to go back on Monday for another ultrasound so that Wayne could have that closure. I called Wayne in the parking lot and he came home immediately. We talked about it and decided that they would know if there could have been any other outcome so we didn't see any reason to put this off any longer. We knew the boys were dead and God had already taken them so we decided it was time to get past this point so that we could move on. We called the doctor and she explained everything to us again and said we could meet her at the hospital at 7:00 am. It was a rough night but we knew it was the right thing to do.

...more to come...this is exhausting.

Good News...

Wayne and I went for the gestational diabetes test today...well I went in for it and Wayne went with me for support (and to laugh at me as I tried to down the orange stuff in 5-7 minutes). We got the results about 30 minutes ago and I scored an 85. You have to be below 130 to pass. I am very thankful that gestational diabetes isn't the cause for the high ketones. That is not something I wanted to deal with. Wayne is convinced that I'm not eating enough but you can bet I'm eating plenty with him beside me today!!! I think I was dehydrated but I am working very hard to keep drinking. I'm always checking the toilet after I pee to make sure I can't see anything. I am drinking enough as long as it isn't yellow...I know...I always thought pee was supposed to be yellow too. This is a pretty accurate measuring tool as I go to the bathroom literally every 10-15 minutes. I get a constant reminder to drink. I think those little boogers are just sucking everything out of me. I'm fine with that as long as they continue sharing with each other equally.

I also got clarification from my nurse today on my cervix. There was some concern when the doctor measured me so she had them use ultrasound to measure me more accurately. They found that my cervix is soft but closed. I think this is where the strict "take it easy" instructions come from. It being soft is only an issue if it begins opening. It is hard but I have my amazing husband to take care of me today...it will be harder when I have 23 2nd grades wanting me to take care of them tomorrow. I will do my best though and keep everything in perspective. We have another appointment next Thursday when they will do another ultrasound. We'll keep you posted!

Not Feeling Wel...

This is Wayne... I'm writing because I'm the dad and that's one of my privileges.  I got a call today from Beverly, around 11:45am, telling me that she was going home for the day.  She wasn't feeling well and since they only have 25% A.C. in her part of the school, it was really taking a toll on her; so she left.  On the way home she called our OB and told the office nurse about certain "pulling" and misc pains she's been experiencing, and that she wasn't feeling well today.  They asked her to come in at 1:00pm to do some urine tests to make sure everything was looking OK.

While they waited on the results from the "pee test" they hooked her up to some EKG-type machine to see if they could get any hints of contractions.  They didn't see anything there, but her "keytones" were indicative of either dehydration or diabetes.  However, since her glucose has always been and still is OK, they're just sure it's dehydration.  But to be on the safe side, they've scheduled for her to do the 1-hour gluco-mohito-hirohito test (or whatever) tomorrow morning (Thur., Sept 4). 

I'm not really sure about the dehydration thing though, because she drinks at least 64oz. of water everyday (we bought her a handy-dandy 64oz. container just for that) and has to pee more than any person I have ever known.  She held that title before she was pregnant, and her ability to squeeze out the yellow stuff has only grown to new heights since.  I just can't imagine that she needs more water - but what do I know.  Can you get an IV for the home to just pump water into her?  

Most importantly, they have told my lovely wife that she has to slow-down & take-it-easy.  The doc specifically said that she needs to just go to work and come home - nothing else.  Also, since it is twins, she wants her to come in whenever she feels what she might think are contractions, regardless of time or anything.  (I assume the office has to be open, though, right?)

Anyway, I need all-yer-all's help in stressing to Beverly that she needs to take it easy - doctor's orders!!  If you see her trying to do anything resembling work - kindly ask her to cease-and-desist and plant her tush on the nearest soft object.  Then promptly call her husband and let him do whatever inane task she was attempting.  Thank you.

We'll update you on the results of the "1-hour gluco-mohito-hirohito test" when we know.

We Finished Painting the Nursery

We've finished the painting of the nursery!! It only took three days. Here is a quick slideshow: